It seems so unfair, doesn't it to sacrifice one's sense of self for relative stability. Is it worth it? I have told myself that my present state perhaps is. I am bigger than I have ever been. But I am also more stable than I have ever been. But what about next week? What about next month and the month after that? At what point will I stop gaining weight?

I try to be physically active, I try to have a good relationship with food yet I continue to balloon. @#%$$^%$& medication!