Wow, i feel like i'm going to start bawling any minute right now. Does anyone else feel like they're trapped in a hellish world? I feel like i can't get out of this little circle. Right now i'm in college and it's especially hard to deal with everything on top of having an eating disorder. I'm supposed to be saving my money but i continue to spend it on food that i dont need. Why can't i just be normal. How can people say they're full and be okay with that? I also hate not having anyone to talk to that understands. If there's anyone else out there that gets to the point where they just want to cry, would you possibly want to be "get better buddies"? I really need to quit this. I have my good days, but they never last. I did go four days with only throwing up once. That sounds so bad but to another bulimic, you know how hard that is. Thats why i need someone who understands to talk to.