(((((LittleMouse))))),
I totally understand! I think that motivation or the lack thereof, is not very well understood. It sounds like low motivation is a symptom that is very severe for you. It's no wonder that you are frustrated by what your pdoc said. It's not like you want to be that way, right? I also have depression and anxiety and deal with motivational issues frequently. I actually take meds. for my lack of motivation/excessive daytime sleepiness. I can't begin to tell you how much it has helped me. After I started taking the drug (Provigil), my motivation came back, I started being productive again, my self esteem rose, and my depression lifted. Hang in there! PM me if you'd like. Please take care of yourself!