Hi all! I hope you're all well. I'm admittedly having a weird night. Feeling a bit sad and I'm not sure why but I want to cry. I just feel very lonely and stressed out and I got to thinking about some things.

I've been depressed since I was 13, for the past 11 years. And sometimes I wonder if I'll be like this for the rest of my life. I go to therapy and am on medication, but...idk. I always get in ruts. I can't go a month or even a week without getting in a rut. It's very frustrating now. I don't know what it's like to just...live life freely and not be overridden with low moods or anxiety.

Do you guys think depression is lifelong (by that I mean relapsing constantly) or temporary? Hope that's not too silly of a question. It's just that sometimes it seems like I'll be like this for the rest of my life. I don't know what to do anymore. Thank you!