The one thing in the last few years that made me happy is now done

I was a rules guru for a game. Yeah, so what...

I was recognized for my expertise and understanding, granted with a special status on one of the top sites for the game. I voluntarily gave it up.

But it does nothing for me now. I find it very hard not to just give away everything I have and just surrender

I have read one of the warning signs of suicides is this disconnecting. Severing ties, walking away

A Softer World was ever Friday

^^^ is how I feel. I wish something would happen where I could sacrifice myself to save others, to add some value to my life. As of right now? I have added nothing of value to the human race, no legacy, no intrinsic valuation of my being here