I feel down a lot and when I'm not down i feel like i am just there and going through the motion the only difference in that is when I'm interacting with my son and even at times with that there is a tinge of sadness or everything else around me is affecting me the same like we are in a little bubble but i can still feel it coming at me from all sides and aspects...sorry that feeling is hard to explain..but anyway there are rare ocassions once in a blue moon that i wake up feeling truely good not ok but fantastic and i am so thankful at first and i try to take advantage of it but it doesn't last long and i always end up in a really bad panic attack feeling worse than what i did..i have mood swings too i get angry and agitated tearful..it is a possibility though that you still could be bipolar you could be rapid cycling..i deffinatly eouldnt put the notion to rest just yet..sometimes timing is everything sometimes it just takes finding the right person who really knows their stuff what to look for and cares enough to take the time and effort to investigate it further.