my only contribution has been the hearts of people i have touched..
i dont have anything but that, the ways i affected others lives and probably helped them chose the paths they went down, while i stayed here sitting on the tree stump... waiting for the next traveler...
i dont really want anything though, im pretty disconnected as well, but its not such a bad thing for me.. if i wasnt so detached from the world... id weep tears of blood...
just wish i could provide and earn a little respect /self respect

im not so great with words sometimes...
but i totally get it... i just feel like i dont want to leave the world prematurely when there may be someone else i can touch and give part of me to..
then i can live longer in the hearts of others no matter what happens to me

im sorry you are hurting... i know the pain
there are many of us in the same boat.. yet we cant see each other for the misery blinding us...

does posting here help you let some of it out..? release some pressure...
doesn't solve the problems, but others can help you carry your "cross"...