I feel like I can get down the stairs either on my butt, or in back of someone, but not be able to get back up here because the railing ends on the last step and I have to push up with my traumatized knees onto the landing.

I don't want to give in to this fear by avoiding the stairs, but since falling yesterday while I was out loud saying "everything is fine", I'm really scared today and I think I'm going to cancel my t appointment today. :/

I'm too damned afraid!