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Originally Posted by starryprince
Hi all! I hope you're all well. I'm admittedly having a weird night. Feeling a bit sad and I'm not sure why but I want to cry. I just feel very lonely and stressed out and I got to thinking about some things.
I've been depressed since I was 13, for the past 11 years. And sometimes I wonder if I'll be like this for the rest of my life. I go to therapy and am on medication, but...idk. I always get in ruts. I can't go a month or even a week without getting in a rut. It's very frustrating now. I don't know what it's like to just...live life freely and not be overridden with low moods or anxiety.
Do you guys think depression is lifelong (by that I mean relapsing constantly) or temporary? Hope that's not too silly of a question. It's just that sometimes it seems like I'll be like this for the rest of my life. I don't know what to do anymore.  Thank you! |
It is not a silly question, but is impossible to answer.
Sometimes it is a matter of finding the right meds or therapist and only get it once. Some have it come and go and sometimes it doesn't matter what you do.
I have been fighting it for 21 years, but it is not a constant. I am always depressed but the levels fluctuate. I was able, through starts and stops, get two degrees during that time but soon after crashed hard and haven't been able to work at all since then.
You didn't mention that you are seeing a pdoc or therapist. If you aren't please do. You just might find a solution.
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PDD with Psychotic Features, GAD, Cluster C personality traits - No meds, except a weekly ketamine infusion