My social anxiety makes it so writing down my emotions and my situations more difficult because I do not want my peers to think I am a negative person. My family and the crowd I am associated with only see anything that is not filled with positive energy as not of the light in our spiritual growth.

So I bottle things up and find myself wondering if my problems are pointless. When I write them down my thoughts blur, and I erase it all after spending at least thirty minutes to an hour on it.