Shame, fear, low self-esteem and trust issues are the top causes of death to our sexuality. Often parents don't realize how much their relationship issues are internalized by their children. Witnessing repeated signals can imprint on a young mind, just a strongly as if they were directed at you. To get past these feelings the first step is to realize that whether intentionally or unintentionally you were conditioned to feel this way. If you were raised by ducks, and you would probably believe that you too were a duck! You need now to start to separate your image from your environment and past experiences. This can be a hard lengthy process but nobody can truly be happy healthy and open with others, if they don't know who they are as an atomomous individual. To truly understand love we must first learn to love ourselves. talking to a T about your sexual issues would be the best Avenue to take. This may require you to push yourself hard thru the initial discomfort and anxiety, but start slowly and if it becomes too overwhelming let your T know that you need to stop or change subjects. Overtime hopefully the topic should become easier to address. Also, to awaken the shy sexuality being hiding inside maybe start trying to take baby steps towards a sexual relationship with yourself. Do/ buy little things that make you feel pretty like a nice hair cut or color, getting your nails done, buying that sexy dress and heels that calls to you when you pass a store display but push away from cuz you know you would be to embarrassed to ever wear them... you don't ever have to wear them out but buy them! Wear them at home just for you to admire in the mirror. Get some scented lotions that appeal to you and take mindful time rubbing them in being aware of how your skin feels when you gently caress it with care.. then when you get more comfortable with the touch and sensations of your body, try to explore it more and more... All humans are sexual beings from even before birth! Just some need a bit more nurture to grow.