Hi Richard. I read this and you mentioned it is not okay to be alone. You are the type of person who needs to be with someone. Sometimes that can come across as desperation and we tend to settle for anyone who is available at the moment. And often times women will go for men while on the rebound until someone else comes along.
If you can take these things i have mention and read up on them, why people do that and how to change that then i think you will find another women in right timing and one that will trust and love you as much as you do her. And these are things you might want to mention to your therapist. blessings and tc