hey. thank you. yeah, i really really like him. just worry about being too needy / demanding. worry about him feeling smothered. worried that he might find my 'forwardness' unappealling. if it was a turn-off or something. but... it didn't seem to turn him off, and he didn't seem to mind... so... best not read too much into that, i think.

trying not to be too needy... and trying (now that i think i understand it a little) to make sure he gets some emotional space. try not to ask intrusive questions, and try and be sensitive if i think he is uncomfortable talking about something. there will be plenty of time to talk over the years, i'm sure. i guess... he suggested i visit for 2 weeks. and i was thinking that i'd like to go for longer... 3 weeks maybe. i'll be sensitive to his preference, though. say what i'd like and if he doesn't seem keen then i can back off. try and give things time.

try and enjoy the journey and not long to be someplace somewhere in the future. slow down... i'm so not good at impulse control :-(

and getting to know him, yeah. i guess i am learning a lot about him over the phone. and if i'm learning a lot about him i guess that means he is learning a lot about me. i think we are moving from the showing our best to sharing some of our weaknesses stage. so there is a kind of vulnerability there. it is measured though, kinda. i guess neither of us want to put the other off.

i just wish we could do stuff together as well as talking to each other. i mean... it would be nice to just hang out together. go to a pub and listen to a band or go for a walk and just enjoy it without talking. have a meal together. those kinds of things. playfighting. watching a movie.

but... patience. need to learn some patience.