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Originally Posted by monalisasmile
Thank you for those kind words 1step 
It it causing me great distress because I always feel judged and blamed.
I know you and others may not believe it but my t is a really good person, she doesn't mean to hurt me and perhaps I am sensitive. I bring out the worst in her. She has had a big loss lately and I am sure this is having an impact on her work.
In a way I am looking forward to doing t this favour because I will see her outside of session and know her a bit more. She wouldnt ask unless she had to. I am learning from the best, my tutors are really special and I have been incredibly blessed with them. I am going to be losing them this summer and I cant cope with losing them and t, that would be devastating. My relationship with t has been turbulent, what is most upsetting for me is that is not seeing it as I see it. She thinks everything is fine and doesn't understand why I am so upset. I know you have had some pretty bad ruptures with your t and so you have had your own upsets lately and so I thank you for your response  |
For the first part: NO, NO, NO....NO! You are NOT too sensitive!! You bring out hte worst in her?!? NO! I feel for you because I understand how difficult it must be for you when you are so attached, but please see that this is not your fault in any way. You are trying to rationalize it, as anyone would---but I have to strongly disagree. She is gaslighting you, big time.
ANd for the second bolded part: She will
never see your side of it. I feel like her "sensitivity" towards you has only decreased. You know what the great thing about my therapist is? She is
exactly the same each week. She is warm, and funny, and empathetic, and has had to tell me hard things, but has done so kindly and i have never felt rebuked by her. Keep posting here, and I hope our words sink in.