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Old May 13, 2016, 10:53 PM
Anonymous45023
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Originally Posted by Pearl9327 View Post
I don't know what is happening, but I am out of control as of late - or almost.

A couple of weeks ago, I flipped out for no reason. I was calm until I was given an assignment at work, and then I went beserk. In my head, I started ranting and raving about everything - how the world is unfair, you can't trust anyone, there's too many games to play in the world, people treat you like *****, etc. I got so riled up, that I wanted to cry but I couldn't...Today, anyone who bumped into me on the streets I nearly cursed out, or muttered "retarded a**hole" or the like. I'm a walking hurricane now!...
Anyway, anyone know what is going on or can relate? How can I calm down? I'm going crazy!.
I can relate to these. Trust and games are major issues for me."Walking hurricane" -- I'll have to remember that one, because it's a good description. Irritable and agitated are a bad combo. Many, many examples, but a couple that come to mind is seriously wanting to throw down when someone touched my food on a grocery checkout. Or totally flipping out from the sound of two small beads clacking. Kind of funny now, but at the time... not so much! ( I can't speak for your situation, but the bead one was when I figured out those kinds of things were indicators of an upswing for me.)

As for what to do... I try to "self-quarantine". I'll tell my BF what I'm doing. It's better for everyone, as dealing with people is... Well, you know. It doesn't take much.

One thing that I recently discovered. Backstory-- my car stopped working months ago and no money to fix it, which means I've been taking transit. Well, that's pretty much the opposite of above, right? Haha. BUT. Now to the discovery. It (completely!) eliminates road aggravation, which was a problem. It does help to ride off-peak of course. I haven't had much experience with being in a sustained episode of that state (yet), but mention it if it's of any use with that facet of combativeness.

Edited to add-- it was the hypersensitivity with the bead thing that was the tip off.

Last edited by Anonymous45023; May 13, 2016 at 11:24 PM.
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