Yeah, I have been so harsh and just assuming that I am too different for anyone to have incommon with me but it is all lies all the people that I have as friends have the same core values that I have I just have to stop being so harsh on myself. I wish it was easy and thank you I haven't tried OKcupid. There is one thing I have successfully done in all of this is avoid getting close to males and weither that be friendships or anything I know how overwhelmed they can make me especially when I think every poliet male wants to date me. Then I get confused so I just left it I do have some males that I have been able to some myself from meshing with myself and I have certainly let go of my obsession with controlling my love life and just letting it come