Awful day playing "dress up," it felt like. I spent the day at a professional conference. I'm supposed to be one of these said professionals; I do have my masters degree and a career. However, I've spent the last 15+ years totally crazy and dissociated and hardly remember school, nor did I get the chance to learn how interact with other adults, as I was away in my crazy world (I did distance education for grad school.) I feel like I've woken up in my thirties but my social age is that of a teenager. I fear I can't keep doing this job. I don't know how to relate to people. Even trying to get through a conference was hell. I wonder if my life will ever be real, or if I'll always be playing some role.