I've noticed my dreams help me see where I am at in therapy.

I had a dream last night I was back in my childhood home, but my husband was living there with me.

There was a rat in the living room and at first I run to get away, then turned back and dived onto the floor to knock the rat away, but acutally caught it in my hands and I was amazed in the dream that I was feeling able to hold onto it and not be afraid and just let it go and then run.

I shouted to my husband that i had the rat and I wanted to hold it until he opened the back door for me to get rid of it completely.

He wouldnt open the door but he held a tin out for me to put the rat into. I was feeling anxious that he wasn't allowing me to get the rat right out of the house, but settled for putting it in the tin and putting the lid on it.

Then I turned around and there was the most wierdest worm type creature, it looked like a potatoe that sprouts and the sprouts had turned into 3 wombs joined together, but this little wriggly creature was to much for me, I couldnt deal with it.

I'm guessing my husband represented the part of me that holds me back, and the rat is the biggy issues I've talked about in T now for 3yrs but the wriggly womb thing is the wriggly emotions that i know need to be faced now, that scare me more than talking about the BIG things.