This all just feels like drama too me. Like I should be able to close the curtains and end this! I have decided not to take the meds ... I will work on this for a while and see how it goes. I am still functioning, going to work, time with my kids and husband. Not so much socially but hoping with the summer that will change. I will continue with my skills in ACT therapy I have learned and other meditation techniques. I just need the anxiety to subside and the feelings of dread. I think if I can control those I will get the upper hand on all the other things that come with it. Oh and sleep ... I need sleep. I miss sleep!
After what I have gone thru .... medications terrify me. So i think if I can work on this on my own strengths and have some success it will do a world of good for me.
Thank you so much for your posts and words .. I find it soooo helpful and comforting knowing I'm not in this alone.