I'm new and not sure where to go. I'm so messed up in many ways. I am dealing with many issues: bi-polar, depression, thoughts of suicide. My children use to be my main reason for living, and now that doesn't even work. Sometimes I think they would be better off w/o me. My husband wants me to be who I "use to be" but w/all my medication and other recent events; I don't know who I am anymore, let alone, "who I use to be." I have lost all feeling for life. I have no desire for sex, marriage, love, friendship...I won't say, being mom, as it still pulls at me, but it's fading...I think everyone would be better off w/o me. I've tried to seek help and w/limited resources, no one will take me.

I feel like I have been cursed. This past year has been overwhelming and I can't seem to get out from under this black cloud. I can't see a silver lining...all I see is a noose around my neck!