I've been out of that house for nearly a year now, just some parts of me hold deep doubts...

I've tried, I was put on anti-depressents which only evened out my mood swings a bit, I've tried smiling and laughing for everyone, but each time it comes back and by far more so...

I... tried suicide once. Not my proudest moment, so yes I very much want to live, something that night, I was sleeping, inspired m eand made me wake up... that feeling that I didn't truly want to die then...

I forgot to add in... I'm 19, 20 in a couple weeks... its something that's haunted me to no end since I don't know when, but it got horribly worse when I became a teen and hasn't levelled off yet...

I want it to stop...