I've been afraid of taking drugs. When I was really bad and went to pdoc he offered me drugs, I said no. I found a T who doesn't like drugs, or I think it would be better to say He believes we can do it without drugs. There was one point where I was particularly bad and he was considering to send me to a Psychiatrist to get drugs, but we worked through it. He said he was afraid of getting me addicted to something. It has been hard, and still is, but there is part of me that is glad I never went the pharmacy route. Some days my mind changes on that, but those are usually the bad days where I'm having a hard time.