I have felt this way so much, it scares me that I don't care. I had even become more reckless with my driving, a few close calls and instead of relief I just felt nothing. I was telling my husband how I almost got into a wreck and my 9 year old daughter overheard me and said, "I don't want you to die mom." Ever since then this little phrase has given me so much hope. She wants me, needs me, loves me.

I have been trying out different recipes on pinterest, also finding ways to save money has been a goal. I started a garden and I was trying to exercise more. Audio books have been enjoyable. These may seem like small things but they have really helped, whether giving me a purpose or not-they have been a good distraction.