Im so sorry that you are dealing with so much and then the only ppl you felt you could turn to betrayed you like that. i agree with skeezyks suggestion. Idk where you go to school but i think most colleges have a student health clinic. Alot of times they can help you also get free or cheap health care. Also check out your student union and other places where ppl post bulletions. It is likely that there are support groups on or near campus that you might find IRL supportive ppl. But in the meantime keep posting here! We may not be face to face but there are lots of wise kind supportive ppl here someone will almost always have time to at least send you a virtual hug. check out some different forums. I suggest for you the Depression, ptsd, survivors of abuse, and coping with emotions forums as good places to start.