Hello azuresky49: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral... from the Skeezyks! I'm sorry you find yourself in this sad & difficult situation. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here on PC. So I believe you will be able to find the support you seek. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more connected to the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join as well as chat rooms (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! I wish you well...