I knew I'd find myself back here eventually, I am dx'd with depression but I always forget how much it sucks. That and have manic like episodes which is why I posted here... Today I've slept for 14 hours, still tired, watched youtube vids and stayed in bed for most of it... I really really need to do laundry today at the minimal but it feels like someone poured sand in my body and everytime I stand up and move around I realize how much I desire to lye down again. Also had an episode this morning where I was slamming my car door and yelling profanities at it at like 4:30 am bcuz it tried to shut itself on me again... uhg, and the thoughts are back ohhhhh how I missed them (not) Idk why I wanted to post this, I'm not looking for attention. Maybe just trying to guilt myself into being more than a worthless bed dweller and actually do something today