Weed makes me very paranoid around other people, I had to be alone most of the time when i smoked, I destroyed the best relationship Ive been in because I acted like a weirdo on it to my ex girl. She said I was weird and shes right.

Weird = paranoid, fearful, unable to communicate, too many thoughts.

I was also prone to temper tantrums. I got angry a lot when I wasnt stoned during the 2 year long period I smoked in adulthood. I did and said many things I regret to loved ones. (girlfriend and parents)

Ive been clean off weed for two months, feel much steadier, solid and mentally stable. I dont miss it anymore, it took a year from the point I realized I should quit to finally quiting. The first 6 weeks detoxing off was brutal, was going crazy and very paranoid. Now I feel better than I have in a long time.

one other thing: Im a musician trying to get to next stage in the business. Weed made music very intense, psychedlic and intensly enjoyable. The problem with that is I wasnt motivated to practice since I didnt need to to be gratified. Since I quit weed there has been much more practice. Less Dreaming, More Doing.

So for me, there is overwhelming evidence that I should stay away from weed for good. Its done so much damage, the damage has been painful and I want the lessons learned to applied. The pain would be a total waste if I didnt make the changes.