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Originally Posted by eden1515
so as some may know i recently got out of hospital i havent seen either my psychologist or psychiatrist since but i have appointments with both coming up the first one is my psychiatrist which i am very nervous about because he is not aware that i omitted many details while at the hospital. to be fair they didnt ask and i didnt tell and they were going to hurt me. anyway i am worried because the others in my head dont really want me to tell him anything because i guess a few things have changed well not the basic ideas but everything has gotten stronger like i am even more sure about the others and the demons and what i need to do. but i am scared if he finds out i will end up in the hospital again. i dont know what to do because i know he will ask and i dont know what to say i am scared the others well it is complicated but i have to do some stuff for them only ugh i dont know how to say it.
question 1: should i be scared of my psychiatrist
Question 2: if i tell my psychiatrist or psychologist the following do you think i could get sent back to hospital?
ok so um the others in my head arent just entities they are kind of angels only not angels like normal they are Satans angels and they are not exactly just in my head anymore i mean they are still there but they are also other places and the demons are still trying to hurt me but the demons are sent by God only cause he made this world when he wasnt meant to it has kind of messed with things and now things are a little reversed and it is causing problems in the original world because it took something from that world and that is why the others are here and in my head cause i am defective and that is how they got in and other people have others in their heads too only they dont know because their others are controlled by God and they have not been told or allowed to see. which is why it is hard because other people dont think they are going to hurt me when they are because they dont understand what is going on and they cant ever find out because the others in their heads wont let them know. but i still have to do what the others want and they do have magical powers because of Satan the same with how the demons can do stuff because of God. it is kind hard to explain. but do you think i would get sent back to hospital if they knew this?
thanks if you read all this sorry it is so long.
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Thanks for letting us hear from you and know how you are.
Here’s what I think and I won’t sugar-coat it either. Question 1: I don’t think psychiatrists and therapists tend to understand this kind of stuff very well. That doesn’t mean you should be scared of your psychiatrist exactly, it sounds like he wants to try to help but he doesn’t know everything, and so . . .
Question 2: I have never been diagnosed as psychotic and don’t believe I ever have been. From my experience with my dissociative disorder, what you write here makes sense in a way. Not that that’s what things are like for me, but . . . I’m not going to doubt that’s the way things are to you and as long as you’ve been struggling with this it makes more sense to me just to accept that’s the way it is for you. I can explain some more about what things are like for me, if you like, but the focus here is on what to tell your psychiatrist.
First off, I’d suggest that you tell him only what you feel safe telling him. As scared as you are almost all the time, I think many forward-thinking mental health professionals these days might advise you to try to find ways and places to feel safe if you can. There was a current thread on here about that. I wrote about how I’ve never really felt safe in therapy – or, when I did, it was because I was too trusting. And yet I'm still going! . . .So . . .if you’re careful and try to find ways to feel safe, with both your psychiatrist and your internal world, maybe that will help. If not, I'm sorry and please feel free to accept or ignore what I have written here in whatever way feels best and safe to you.