I see my T tomorrow, I made an appt with him, I need to understand what is happening with me. My emotions are all in a jumble, he called me on Tuesday morning and we talked on the phone for awhile, he thinks that my emotions are all stirred up from my issues with abandonment, and mom's anniversary date of her death is around the corner. I sent him the poem I wrote, and he responded that he is NOT abandoning me. I am really nervous about tomorrows appt, knots in my stomach. I need to get out everything that is bothering me, including the fact that he is insisting the hardest part of this is over for me, my disclosure, yet my emotions are what is sending me back big time, and I know it is everything stirred up with working on my inner child. He says that disclosing is the hardest part, I don't feel that way, right now feels like the hardest part with all the emotions surfacing.