I have really struggled with intense maternal transference with my therapist. It got pretty out of control at certain points. I am sorry you are going through it. Its tough stuff. I am glad you have talked about this with your T. Keep talking to her. It helped me so much to take to my T about it over and over as much as I wanted. I was never jealous of her other clients because It made me so happy that other people were getting to have the same amazing T I had and that she was helping other people. I really struggled with maintaining that connection between sessions. My T made me a recording of her talking about what we had and that she was there even if we weren't together. She also gave me a gemstone crystal as a traditional object to help me feel that connection to her between sessions. It feels so good to have something physical that I can hold and know she was out there. I hope it gets better for you. It is normal to have these feelings.
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