I'm gonna be 54 on July 4. But I am quite in touch with my inner 15 year old (I call her 15 for short), in fact was just talking with t about her today. A lot of the push-pull I experience with t sometimes, is because of 15 being activated by stuff. (I never believed in the whole 'inner child' idea, until current t helped me understand.) I realized early on in therapy that my emotional development for all intents and purposes stopped when I was 15, the year my beloved grandma died, she was more of a mother to me than my mother was. So part of my therapy has been about 'growing up' 15, in a way.