No offense but I am not sure what you mean. I can recall great detail about some incidents - some are blurred, some only the humiliation lingers (there was always humiliation involved - but sometimes that is the only part that is remembered - not the details). Some I don't know if I actually remember or if my parents just told the stories of what they did to us so often that it seems like I remember.
But again, I learned I could live through it, appear impervious, laugh at it with them, be able to do what needed to be done and so on - good skills for someone who has my job.

But I was responding to the idea that it was an adult being sadistic - which it of course can be, just does not have to be in my experience of it.

And now I am thinking of Monty Python's Life of Brian:
BEN: Now, take my case. They hung me up here five years ago. Every night, they take me down for twenty minutes, then they hang me up again, which I regard as very fair, in view of what I done, and, if nothing else, it's taught me to respect the Romans, and it's taught me... that you'll never get anywhere in this life, unless you're prepared to do a fair day's work for a fair day's pay!