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Originally Posted by stopdog
I am not sure what you mean. I can recall great detail about some incidents - some are blurred, some only the humiliation lingers (there was always humiliation involved - but sometimes that is the only part that is remembered - not the details). Some I don't know if I actually remember or if my parents just told the stories of what they did to us so often that it seems like I remember.
But again, I learned I could live through it, appear impervious, laugh at it with them, be able to do what needed to be done and so on - good skills for someone who has my job.
But I was responding to the idea that it was just an adult being sadistic - which it of course can be, just does not have to be in my experience of it.
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My heart hurts. Please forgive me if I did not understand what you said. What you said here rings true with me too. Just trying to be enough, obedient, compliment, whatever it took to feel ok. Safe. Imagined love. Too many thoughts right now!!
Please forgive me if I did not understand your post and hurt you!