It took a while for this post to go through, and in the meantime I talked to a another BP friend about the details. Which would be a great read. Anyway, she said I had good cause. And my therapist said I am looking for true friendship and she isn't. But she literally calls me her best friend. But I feel like I do cartwheels for her and she does very little for me, and I'm just done. I don't do superficial well. That's for work. Or Facebook.

But this decision came in a week where I got into a several arguments with other people and anger is a key manifestation of my mania. I'm tired of adjusting with medication, I already take my high doses of medicines religiously. I wish I could therapy confrontation away. I wish nothing bothered me. Bukowski's Aliens.