I dumped my best friend (or did she dump me?) about three months ago. I still love her but she is so toxic.
This probably sounds weird, but I TOLD her going in that I would be a very hard friend to have. She stayed around and we became best friends. I did a lot for her and vice-versa. She changed however, and instead of being emotionally close, she wanted to talk about recipes.
I kept hoping for the closeness again and I waited seven years (of recipes). My therapist and I agreed I had waited long enough and she just wasn't best friend material anymore.
I have enough other friends and this person lives in another state.
I sort of hope we can be friends again at some point, but I don't know.
I don't miss the drama and loneliness I felt with her.