No I don't have a therapist, I think I keep trying to deny that I really have a problem. That and I'm kinda scared of the fact that if I start seeing a therapist and potentially go on meds it may potentially screw up my future career (law enforcement) Maybe I'm being dumb here idk.

I try every day to feel better and it's hard though it might work some days, hence maybe why I haven't been active on here much because I met a girl and things were going great which made me happyish. Well today she started ignoring me and I feel like **** again. I don't even know if I have depression or it is just situational but it sure as hell feels horrible whatever it is.