they say I'm not. My old therapist had me sign papers that I'm schizophrenic, schizotypal with social anxiety. The next therapist I had said I'm not schizophrenic but have schizotypal and anxiety. I also was a heavy drinker and tried AA. Now I don't drink, nor attend AA. I remember a guy in there saying he wasn't schizophrenic, he was an alcoholic. So if I go to AA and say I'm an alcoholic and surrender to God, and be a bozo on the bus, fall in line and am powerless...people will leave me alone?


What I am trying to figure out is my paranoia is there because people are trying to hurt me and make me sick but nobody believes the stuff I say is happening. I don't have proof but I can tell when it is happening. Maybe I got the wrong guy mad at me and he has connections through money, fbi, nsa, secret societies, I'm sorry I'm schizotypal and whatever I did to make people want to ruin my life. I really don't get it...I'm a nice guy who has never hurt anyone, yet it seems so many want to harass me. Anyways, didn't mean to ramble, guess I just have to accept life as it comes. I read some articles on the Transhuman Agenda and if all this stuff like gang stalking goes on...I mean if all the crap I read is really going on I don't care about "fitting In" this society. I will try to do things that make me happy and enjoy my days and if I die, it will be OK. And if any of you people who are after me are reading this...tell whoever is mad at me, I'm sorry for whatever I did to make you so mad.


I would appreciate any comments about whether this sounds delusional or if you think it is possible.


Thanks