I don't know what I'm doing here. I just felt like I needed to talk with someone. When I realized I couldn't talk to my friends about anything serious, I realized they aren't real friends which is even more depressing. I pushed away the only person that I could tell everything. I struggle with Social anxiety and alcoholism. They go hand in hand for me. Sometimes, I feel like I'm going to lose my mind if I don't have a drink. Today was one of those days. Anyway, I don't want to really go into my story now. I was just feeling absolutely miserable and wanted to talk. I hope there aren't many of you who feel this badly.