My heart is so heavy. My symptoms of bipolar seem to be in remission for quite some time. But, my husband leaving me is senseless. I wish I could just shake him to make him understand how selfish he is being. I feel disgust; not with him but with the situation altogether. Who has survived a cordial divorce? Who has been able to maintain effective co-parenting? I feel like we will always be civil. He is the love of my life and the thought of divorce just tears me apart. I am praying he will have a softened heart but the thought of that seems very bleak. He is done: in his words, in his body language, and in his demeanor. I meet with a lawyer tomorrow. I can't cry enough tears.