I had a therapist break up with me once, I was inconsolable and not making progress. Lithium days. I got off and went back to her. It's been a year now, all good. I doubt you've exhausted Rx, and you sound like you know there is a problem, and want to fix it. Hold on! Idealization is one of my manifests when I'm on the wrong dose/not on a mood stabilizer. I go right there. Is that the case?