I'm so sick of feeling depressed all the damn time. I know I haven't helped myself much with all my isolating and not wanting to do anything, but it's my new "normal" now, and I hate it so ****ing much. Even when I try it feels like I can't get rid of these feelings, they just keep coming back.

Last weekend I went out, my boyfriend and I got a hotel in another city and went to a couple of concerts, went out to get good food and drinks. Everything was so good and I felt great, really great. It was an amazing weekend and I actually was happy. Then we get home, and this morning I woke up feeling miserable. I haven't been able to stop crying and I just want to go back home and go back to bed. I'm so sick of feeling like this, I just want something to make me feel better.