Last night during a fight, my partner accused me of stirring up a fight so I could trash talk her in Therapy the next day and when my therapist's sympathy. She used my Therapist's name -which made it feel even more personal. Like she was playing any transference issues against me. Shaming me.

I know this was just an emotional manipulation but it worked. Now I'm shamed and I feel like I'm just a big drama queen. I feel like what she said is true. I'm just creating or playing up the drama at home so I have something to talk to my therapist about and win sympathy.

This isn't right and it's not rational but I can't get past it in my mind.

The irony is that just last session, my T asked me if my partner was 'addicted' to drama. I want to take responsibility for my role in it and not get sucked in but I get hooked every time. And now I feel as much a part of it as anything else.

I don't know how to talk about what she said.