This is well-expressed and I wish there was an easy answer. My memories of having hypomania- yes there are moments where things appear to be more beautiful than words and there's euphoria but for me there was a cruel crash in how fleeting and unattainable it was to have that feeling stick around for a lasting period of time.

I'm almost two years past my initial diagnosis. Some of the things I find joy in are in things that I couldn't do prior to my diagnosis. Prior to my diagnosis, I had crippling anxiety and I had a lot of social phobias about making friends and maintaining my friendships. While I was still able to have some close friendships pre-diagnosis, I've found that my post-diagnosis friendships have been better balanced. Now I'm the friend that can make other people laugh.

Maybe consider trying out some travel, getting a museum membership, walking a labyrinth, or doing some volunteer work. I've also developed some new hobbies- I love working my way through Angie Grace coloring books. For me- certain experiences are not the same as they were since being diagnosed- for example, it's harder for me to appreciate really good music. If you try to open yourself up to new experiences and new memories- making stability a positive thing- it really feels great.