I sometimes wanto walk out on this parenting thing. I've had enough! It's so terribly hard with no reward or no one saying yeah that was the right thing to do. How do you know?
How do you not get sucked into the vortex of doubt knowing these mistakes could cause damage in their lives?
I have many of my own issues to deal with & I get lost in my own world & know I'm not dealing well in parenting.
I just wanto run. If they wanto know who their mom was maybe they can track me down when their an adult!

Yet I also hear in my head what an absolute coward I'd be to leave them.
I just feel I wasn't cut out for this. How do I smile in all this chaos?