Thank you all so much...I need the support and I'm grateful for all of you.

Today I propositioned him...sigh. He said yes, as long as I understand this divorce will still happen and that there was nothing behind it, he would do it. Of course the intimacy was desirable and I am constantly on the look for scraps...anything to make him stay. I know I can't change his mind but I cannot imagine my children's lives as well as my life without him.

Why did I sleep with him? Moreover, why did I come on to him? I am certain I made this transition even more difficult.

But, I took a shower, fashioned my hair, shaved my legs, put on makeup and a cute dress...for me, not him. I have my group tonight and I know it will feel good to go somewhere all dolled up.