I wanted to start a thread about this (might still do), but I thought it might be triggering, but, for here, since you admitted it yourself: I also like pain. As in, self-harming has something pleasurable about it. And indeed, can be mildly (sexually) arousing.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide.
See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me.
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