I think this is a genuine thought many ponder, I know I certainly have - what is the point to this existence? before I became a Mother I thought this everyday and couldn't understand my place but then I suddenly had a purpose which is a hard and scary job and I often ponder the ifs and whys of that but it is a purpose none the less to exist in this moment in time.

Some people find comfort in the belief that there are higher powers guiding this whole show or there is something awaiting you...which I find comfort in on dark days. I think it is hard to know our purpose until we are able to feel the value in ourselves and something

I know that is not much help, but I understand what you are feeling