sometimes i try to use the pic icons and aac's or something like that where i want to communicate something but i dont know what that something is. the multiple choices seem to be what helps me.

ive also had that experience with those who im trying to communicate to, and they kinda get it, but not really. often they will ask me why im mad at them during this time... im not even able to communicate that im not mad at them, it has nothing to do with them, im mad at myself and so frustraited.

sometimes i also try to put it like they might understand more... lately i was telling one of my healthcare workers that i may seem like ive grown more and not so autistic, but its my meds that enable me to speak and to communicate and not all .... whatever that would be called how i was. and i was telling her that its like my glasses. glasses work like my meds. they enable me to do and see things more like others, but if you take the glasses off, i will still be the same person that i was before getting the glasses.
.... then i got a response that didnt help though...she kinda tried to add a optimistic type of spin on it. and didnt really seem that i communicated what i was trying to get across... even though she was trying to understand.

but then i get stuck... and its constant. not nearly close enough to the common response i get like "oh i get stuck too once in awhile but its okay! we all do that!" or replace "stuck" with anything else that is way more in intensity than just once in while.

meds certainly do seem too help. but i think its different for every person, including for ages. (stimulants was a super big no no for me when i was 4 and 5 and up, it brought on a 5-7 hour long meltdown each time they tried me on it. but now it doesnt do that to me... it weird.. but aparently it differs also for the same person at some point...
sorry for rambling, and stuff...