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Originally Posted by finding_my_way
for me, it really just depends. sometimes, stress makes dissociation happen more. sometimes, it is more trigger related (like the last few months) even without stress.
i am not always aware it is happening because it can differ a lot. i know it more when it is severe and fast. sometimes i will be kind of mildly/mid range dissociative for a week or so and not even know it until i kind of 'come back' fully. it is really confusing for me. it's like having layers of dissociation, i guess, and just the varying types...some can involve some of the other parts/alters, and some doesn't..so it is all a guessing game for me.
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Wow!! You just said it all in a nutshell for me. I've not been able to describe it so accurately. Thank you!
There are those times that I have been triggered and not realized it. It basically feels like my feet have been clipped out from under me without even realizing it, until like you said, I "come back" fully.
THIS COULD BE A TRIGGER - -
Case in point. I was in my trail that I run/walk on. It's been really rainy here and there has been a lot of water closer to the trail than usual. The week before, I had seen several snakes and was trying to stay "there" to watch out for them. I tend to "go away" in my earphones with my music when I'm there, so I was trying hard not to do that. I didn't succeed and zoned out. Next thing I know, I snap to and look down. I'm stepping over one and everything past that point is fragments. I do remember looking at it, it's head was oval shaped so it was not poisonous. That's about it. A couple of days later my foot is burning and I look at it and there a two punctures on the bottom side of my foot. My mind starts spinning. Did it bite me and I can't fit the pieces back together? I don't understand. Is this real? Did this really happen. How do the pieces I remember fit back together??
Hope that wasn't too detailed or graphic. It's just happened last week and still kind of freaking me out.