Or maybe now that you really think your something you are becoming an egotistical jerk who thinks that the only thing of value in life is wild passionate love because you have never experienced it & now that you think you are qualified to experience it you throw a true caring relationship away for a dream.

If I were your wife & you changed into this I would dump you & go let you chase your imagined dream.....

Sounds to me more like the guys typical mid life crisis IMO.